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DANCE
this dance is driving me insane, however i really think i'm on a breakthrough because for the past rehearsals we had this whole routine that looked good on paper but once it was put in performance it didn't work as much, i had the geisha dance separately but now, given that the ending is so much better (both on paper and live) than all the rest of the dance i scratched the rest of the dance and made it more like the ending, meaning the geisha now dance as a group, as a unit or at least more than the first dance we choreographed. this allows a bigger effect and it allows for me to concentrate on that effect when directing rather than concentrating on every geisha to learn and execute their own little dance perfectly. HOWEVER now that they do more things alike and together, the little mistakes and imperfections on their posture and overall performance as geisha are extremely noticeable thus i feel like i'm back to square one (at least in terms of having to correct each girl until perfection, which i´m very aware is impossible).
it was also very useful for me to have another person direct the girls (valentina) and then show me their final product. i noticed that the way she directed the girls was different to mine, she was giving them references that because of their age, they would understand and respond to (mulan,etc) and i could see they enjoyed doing things and working with her so i thought this could be applied when i'm directing them, so when they showed me their final product i was rather shocked to see that they still put the lackluster performance they always do, the same mistakes were made and when speaking to valentina she had the exact same notes and complaints as i did (complaints in terms of performance, not in gossipy terms so calm down) therefore i was relieved, it wasn't me who was the problem, it's not the directing here. however i'm really nervous and preoccupied now because this must mean the problem is them, they just wont work properly even though they all give it their all because, in terms of kabuki and performing they just cant, so this leads me to think and wonder if: is it true? are there people who just can't? what is a director's role here? because in terms of acting roberto taught me a wonderful trick, have them play with their faces (pout, frown, etc) and there really wont be a need for honest facial expression , in that case, they can fake it BUT what is to be done in terms of the physical performance (which is basically their whole performance)because you can't have a girl fake it when it comes to keeping their heads facing forward or their knees together, or smiling or the, dare i say it, overtly complicated walk+move shoulders+move head concept that is just too complicated for them to do? because to have actors fake facial expressions you tell them to frown constantly or pout and they do it, whereas here to have them fake it they actually have to know it. so how do we teach them? how can you teach someone how to act? and how do you direct someone if they dont know how to act?


again, kill me